confused.

so. so.. so.. confused.


the hell's going on??

grawrgh.

Tommorow we're getting a new [male] dog.
Mainly for the sole purpose of making our current bitch (yes, that is harsh, but that is the literal name) to stfu and stop whore-ing for attention.

Also, Wilson wanted to sell the babies for money (to make up for all the money he lost during the duration of Blackie's death and now)

//sigh.


Too many. Dogs.
Even with a billion dogs, none will fill Blackie's spot.


Blackie still owns them all. Like a bosssss.

just thinking to myself. [not trying to start anything.]

I wouldn't say I have low self esteem.

I'd say I'm self conscious.


aaaand jsyk,
It's not like.. "the girls always leave"
Women (and all people in general) have reasons for their actions.

And also, women can be committed.
I was committed to you. Till the day it ended.
But like I told you how I can, "see the future for relationships"
I honestly thought I saw one (a future) with you, but. It was too vague.
+ the distance.
+ how i changed.
+ other things.



Oh well, People are entitled to their opinions.

[edit]
ohbtw, you do have flaws.
everyonedoes.

One of the things I hate:

freaking INDECISIVENESS.
I JUST WANT TO FUCKING SET PEOPLE ON FIRE CAUSE OF THEIR INDECISIVENESS. HOLYFUCK.


jesus's mother.

Since my dad fleed to vietnam, i had no one to pick me up. so i asked my older cousin, phuong, to pick me up.
Her wedding is soon so...
Since i'm a bridesmaid, i wanted to be nice and help her with making decorations.

Eventually she wanted to go furniture shopping with her parents and she wanted me to go along so she can have opinions.

Long story short;
They walk into the store with a budget of $4500 (Mainly her FREAKING PARENTS set that budget) their only intention is to buy a new Dining table and a new sofa.

HOWEVER, they wanted to buy more fucking shit. Like, a new coffee table and new arm chairs and whothehell god knows what.

FREAKING FOUR HOURS LATER (PAST THE CLOSING TIME) They KEEP changing their minds about what to buy and asking the retailer woman to lower the price.
OMG I FELT SO BAD FOR HER(retailer). =.= she had to keep dealing with their indecisiveness and freaking "OMG CAN THIS GO LOWER?"

FINALLY when everyone sat down to calculate the total, it turned out to be $6521.
I really can't believe they(herparents) kept asking for more damn discounts, when the price was already, THAT FUCKING LOW.

THEY BOUGHT HELLA SHIT (total of 18 furniture items) AND THEY EXPECT IT TO BE $4500???

WHAT THE FUCK. //BITCHSLAPBITCHSLAPBITCHSLAP


I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I WENT. my opinion wasn't even fucking considered.

GOD DAMN THEM.


in the end, they said: "Oh.. We'll contact you.. We'll think about it.."

4 HOURS. OF. MY. WASTED. LIFE.


I HOPE THEY(parents) FALL AND BURN IN FIREY PITS OF HELL

how i feel at the moment:

like shit.











wilson is retarded.
sometimes the girls he hangs out with are too.

hm.

One month since he's been gone.

Like a bandit.

I found out my dad split to Vietnam again.
reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaard.

i asked him for how long: "couple months"
asshole.

he said he wanted to leave because "there's more opportunities there for me, than i have here."

UHLOLOLOL. what are you gonna do in vietnam that's better than america?
pick rice?



don't feed me lies.